This is my Journey to find truth. My point of view on my childhood family life and religion. I started it as a way to heal from the past and have found it's been more then healing for myself, but also healing for those that take the time to read.
These experiences have made me the Woman and Mother I am today. I fear changing the past knowing I would loose many of the characteristics I have learned through them.
(Embrace your differences! Love yourself! Hold to truth!)
Saturday, July 27, 2013
With Complete Love and Concern.
A heart filled, loving message from Aaron Tunell to his friend Danny. It is a loving, truthful message to all Mormons. I needed to share it with anyone who is willing to take the time to read. Mormon and Non-Mormon alike. Thank you for your permission Aaron.
me see if I can help you see where I am coming from as an Ex-Mormon who
appears to you to be having some kind of schizoid panic attack about
nothing. (which the 2011 Aaron would have thought also ) I hope you'll
slog through what I'm about to say even though it's kinda long. And
please think about it coming from someone who you once knew and trusted
as a friend and confidant rather than as the lovable idiot Bobby
Imagine you want to take your family to an amazing
theme park resort. You've heard a lot about Disney World on TV and your
friends have talked about it a lot, so you decide to drive down to
Florida to stay there for a couple of weeks. You arrive to Florida only
to be confused because there are 50 theme parks all lined up that all
say "DisneyWorld" on the front. They all have a picture of Mickey Mouse
on the front, but 47 of them all share placards on the front that say
"Confirmed Mousketeer Park. Some Peripheral Rides May Vary, But the Core
Park is Identical"
Most of these 47 parks are very small and
unassuming, and in fact don't look super amazing or super fun. They only
have a couple of rides that can even be seen over the top of the wall.
Now of the other 3 parks, one of them towers above the others in an
amazing spectacle of fun and amazement. The front doors are beautiful,
and there are hundreds of happy looking people inside, and people going
in by the thousands. It is perhaps the most beautifully constructed
theme park ever designed. It has it's own placard that says "The REAL
Disneyland" but there is no Mousketeer placard on the front. This MUST
be the real disneyland because it is so amazing. It has many things that
are lovely, praiseworthy, and of good report. Obviously you want the
best for your family so you decide to go to this disneyland, even though
the mouse on the sign above is slightly different than the others (the
others must be wrong). Perhaps it has a mustache or 5 fingers instead of
4. It doesn't matter, it's still Mickey, right?
You get inside
and have an amazing time with your family and friends who are all there
too. You go on rides together and have an amazing time playing,
relaxing, and doing all the THINGS that theme park visitors do. And the
most amazing part? At the end of the trip, everybody who hasn't left
early gets to go through the big doors in the back to the largest and
most exhilirating ride in the entire park. It's going to be the high
point of the entire trip, Hooray!!!
One night, you're out after
dark getting a churro and you walk past a crack in the wall by the back
door and look through. Instead of seeing a fabulous roller-coaster, you
see a giant filthy rat sitting on a towering pile of corpses. Each
corpse has a frozen grimace of shock and horror on its face, limbs
twisted and broken and mouths gaping. You retch inwardly, telling
yourself over and over "This can't be real, This can't be real.... This
is the TRUE Disney World!"
You run back to your hotel room to
warn your family, and as you're going you start to notice a lot of
alarming things you hadn't seen before. You notice black smoke coming
from a chimney near the back door where the corpses are being burned,
you notice more and more of the details on that Mickey Mouse sign that
are slightly different from the ones on the "Confirmed Mousketeer
Parks"... In fact, every direction you look there's something ugly being
covered up by a conveniently placed sign, or being plastered over with a
fresh coat of paint. Once the rose-colored glasses have come off, you
see the signs EVERYWHERE. How could you have missed it?
When you get back to your room, your wife and friends say: "How could such a beautiful theme park with a picture of Mickey on the front be bad?" "This Mickey is the same one, it's just more complete than the other Mickeys" "You're overreacting, and just being 'Anti-Tourist'" "Every other theme park has chipped paint too" "If this theme park is bad, then all theme parks are bad" "The other theme parks don't have as many rides" "If you leave the park, you can't go through the beautiful back door with us." "The staff says this is the only real park" "The staff would never lie"
Would you walk away quietly while your friends and family walk casually
through the back door, confident they are in the REAL Disneyland? Would you just shut up? Would you play nicey-nice and pretend all of the disneylands were the same?
I see my friends walking excitedly through the back doors, high fiving
and slapping each other on the back, ecstatic to be at the REAL
Disneyland. All around them are the signs that you could see plainly but
they don't want to look! And when you frantically point and scream,
they call you a troublemaker. And add to that the Staff who is
constantly telling people about how awesome the park is and that people
like you are just hateful and jealous.
A lot of Mormons want us
to just walk away quietly and "stop attacking the church" when we start
to see all this stuff. But this is how I see myself, Danny. Horrified
and what is happening. This stuff is real, Danny. I believe God is real, Jesus is real, and hell is real. You think I'm going to let this continue?
Every denomination has issues, I agree, Danny. But NO TRUE CHRISTIAN
will tell you that their church saves you. They will ALL tell you that
it is their direct saving relationship with Christ. 100% Grace 0% works
and ordinances (contrary to Article of Faith 3) This is taught in all 47 of the "Confirmed Mousketeer Theme Parks", but it is not taught in the so-called "Real Park"
I'm telling you, Danny. I believe this is important. And Mormonism has
72,000 missionaries out there knocking on the doors of Bible-Believing,
Traditional Christians. What would YOU do?"