Sunday, May 29, 2011

Salt Lake Temple. June 25th 1999

Waking up bright and early. Getting our precious family in the car and driving from Riverton Utah to Salt Lake City. We enter the Salt Lake Temple for the very first time with our entire family, including our 3rd child I am pregnant with.

We drop Corey and Cerena off with the Temple Matrons and are lead back to get dressed into our Temple clothing. They escort us into the Celestial room where we wait and bask in the beautiful spirit. Sitting next to one another, holding hands, soaking in the beauty, waiting to be escorted to a sealing room.

This very day, one of my biggest fears will be put to rest. The day I gained a testimony of the Prophet of the church, is also the day I realized my husband and I were not sealed, with the proper authority, for time and all eternity. If something were to happen to one of us we would have to have our work done for us. Our children were not sealed to us, so we would have had to have that done as well. It weighted heavily on my heart. I wanted to make sure, our family would be sealed for ever! I didn't want to rely on someone else to do that for us. This day, that weight would be lifted from my shoulders!

As Brian and I kneeled across from one another at the alter, holding hands, the tears flowed. This man, who I promised to be with forever, would now be my forever companion, for the first time, 4 Years to the day we were married! We fell in love all over again!

Then the matrons brought our precious children in to us and set them on top of the alter. Seeing them dressed in white was one of the most beautiful sights. We were sealed together as a family. There was not a dry eye in the room as many in the room knew exactly of our journey and shared in our joy!

I know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is the one and only true church on the earth. I know that Thomas S. Monson is a true prophet of the Lord who holds all of the Authority to the Priesthood. I have a Testimony of Prayer. I could not have asked for more clear answers through prayer. I know my Savior loves me, died for me and I know, through him, all of my sins will be forgiven, if I but repent and give them to him. I have a testimony of the Book of Mormon. I Know that Joseph Smith, with the inspiration of our Heavenly Father, translated the Gold Plates to give us the record of the people who came to the Americas, lived in Americas and even those, who got to see the Savior, after his resurrection, in the Americas. I have a Testimony of Temple work for the dead through proxy as well as the work we do for ourselves. I know, if you take the time to pray, with a sincere heart, wanting to know truth without an agenda, the Lord will answer you!


Update 11-9-12

Excuse me as I remove my foot from my mouth and wipe the egg from my face. I was deceived. I was wrong. I was misinformed because I chose to research a few topics and not the foundation of the LDS church. I relied on my "Burning of the Bosom", knowledge lacking testimonies instead of the Word of God. I chose to be ignorant of the Bible and it's warnings. After much study and learning how the Bible we now have came to us, I know now my God kept his word and preserved his words to our day and his words will be preserved forever. My God cannot Lie and has kept his promises.

Ohh dear. The things that weighed heavily on my heart while trying to save myself through the "Works" I thought were required to make it back to God. The "Works" that I did to save myself and my ancestors.. so they could make it back to God. How foolish I was. Thinking that God dwells in the Temples here on Earth?

Acts 7:48-49 
48 Howbeit the most High dwelleth not in temples made with hands; as saith the prophet,  
49 Heaven is my throne, and earth is my footstool: what house will ye build me? saith the Lord: or what is the place of my rest?

Not to mention the fact about trying to save myself... doing all the works I can, to pay for a Gift that can't be bought. If I can do it all and save myself by becoming perfect ...or even work my way to 1,000th of the way and have the Savior fill in the rest.. what need do I have of a Savior in the first place? My works are nothing! I can do nothing to earn salvation. You don't earn a gift. You accept it. 

Ephesians 2:8-9 
For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:
Not of works, lest any man should boast

My "works" are nothing. I am a sinner. I cannot be perfect by my own doing.. It's against human nature because of the fall of Adam. God knows this. All he asks is we accept and know our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Through him we become perfect in him. He dwells in those who accept his Gift. Good works follow the believer.  We are changed and become a new creature in Christ, who saves us.... We must repent of our Righteousness!! 

Isaiah 64:6 
"But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousness are as filthy rags;and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away."

Luke 18:19 And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? none is good, save one, that is, God. 

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Covenants Received!

Our date to take out our Endowments is June 24th 1999. We schedule to take them out in the Manti, Utah Temple. We chose this temple because they have live sessions. In the Group they had a live session of their own so we wanted to experience a live session for our own personal reasons.

We drove to Manti with Brian's Sister and Brother in Law Becky and Sam. The day before we attended the Manti Pageant and toured the town. Stayed in a hotel room and awoke bright and early to be the first couple to attend the session.

Walking into the temple, feeling the peace and calm of wonderful surroundings. The attendants escorted us back to speak to the Temple presidency. I could feel angels pass us in the hall and was so overcome with joy that tears filled my eyes! We were then escorted back to change into white clothing to prepare for the session.

It was wonderful, so full of meaning and feeling that many times during the session I couldn't help but cry. Feeling the love and truth of everything was more then I could have ever hoped to feel. Toward the end, when my husband lead me into the Celestial Room, there was not a dry eye in the room. Total strangers that went through the session with us were crying. Temple patrons were in tears as well as our wonderful Friends and Family that were able to attend with us. Entering the Celestial Room was as if we entered Heaven itself! I wanted to dwell in that room forever!

My beautiful box was no longer empty but was now full and overflowing!


Updated 11-9-12
My box was so full of feeling. So full of what I needed to feel. So full of what I wanted to feel...and so full of deception.

There are things missing from this ceremony that were in the Polygamy ceremony. Things I later questioned my Bishop who then sent me to the Stake President. His answer to our questions about the penalty's that were removed?  The Lord saw that they weren't needed anymore so they were removed. Why were they not needed? Why were they removed? What kinds of penalties did the Lord require now if they were broken? (They were pretty grotesque and part of me was glad they were removed  but I still questioned why the change?) Does God change things for the comfort of his children? Why did he not change the Law of Moses to conform more to the comfort of the Jews? That would mean his word is ever changing instead of never changing. The LDS church believes in a Church that is ever changing. It doesn't matter what one prophet before them taught.. When that prophet passes away it's almsot as if most everything they said it null and void when the current Prophet makes a statement that contradicts the last. One generation of Mormons believes one thing and the next believes another.. There teachings don't match and it's confusion. Old time Ensign use to be the Journals of Discourses.. but it's not official Doctrine anymore. It's Null and Void. So what if one prophet use to teach that the only way to enter the Celestial Kingdom is by living the Plurality of wives?  That went away with The manifesto and the Prophet Wilford Woodruff. The Most recent.. and I know it's silly... but Gordon B Hinckley said that faithful members of the church don't drink Coke... but now it's okay to drink Coke. Did God conform to mans weakness because they were already doing it?

More Preparation.

We are now members of the Church Of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. For the first time in my life I know where I belong. . The peace that fills me is indescribable. I feel I'm home.

We now need to wait a year before we can enter the Temple to take out our endowments and be sealed as an eternal family. Taking this journey with my best friend and Husband was such a blessing. Having this man, whom I chose to be with forever is now with me, on the same path.

We received our Temporary Temple recommends and entered the Temple to do Baptisms for the dead at least 2-3 times a month. Feeling the presents of those who had been waiting to get their work done, their excitement, gratitude, and joy was sometimes overwhelming and other days sparse.

It was a rough year, full of temptations and doubts. Not of our faith but of my worthiness to be sealed to such a wonderful man for eternity! I made some choices that caused me to have to put our date on hold, but with some help from my husband and lots of prayer, I was able to overcome the problems and continue.

By this time, I am now expecting our 3rd child, Andrew. He will be our first child that will be born under the covenant into our Eternally Sealed Family! My due date will be 6 weeks before his birth from our Sealing date.