Sunday, May 29, 2011

Salt Lake Temple. June 25th 1999

Waking up bright and early. Getting our precious family in the car and driving from Riverton Utah to Salt Lake City. We enter the Salt Lake Temple for the very first time with our entire family, including our 3rd child I am pregnant with.

We drop Corey and Cerena off with the Temple Matrons and are lead back to get dressed into our Temple clothing. They escort us into the Celestial room where we wait and bask in the beautiful spirit. Sitting next to one another, holding hands, soaking in the beauty, waiting to be escorted to a sealing room.

This very day, one of my biggest fears will be put to rest. The day I gained a testimony of the Prophet of the church, is also the day I realized my husband and I were not sealed, with the proper authority, for time and all eternity. If something were to happen to one of us we would have to have our work done for us. Our children were not sealed to us, so we would have had to have that done as well. It weighted heavily on my heart. I wanted to make sure, our family would be sealed for ever! I didn't want to rely on someone else to do that for us. This day, that weight would be lifted from my shoulders!

As Brian and I kneeled across from one another at the alter, holding hands, the tears flowed. This man, who I promised to be with forever, would now be my forever companion, for the first time, 4 Years to the day we were married! We fell in love all over again!

Then the matrons brought our precious children in to us and set them on top of the alter. Seeing them dressed in white was one of the most beautiful sights. We were sealed together as a family. There was not a dry eye in the room as many in the room knew exactly of our journey and shared in our joy!

I know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is the one and only true church on the earth. I know that Thomas S. Monson is a true prophet of the Lord who holds all of the Authority to the Priesthood. I have a Testimony of Prayer. I could not have asked for more clear answers through prayer. I know my Savior loves me, died for me and I know, through him, all of my sins will be forgiven, if I but repent and give them to him. I have a testimony of the Book of Mormon. I Know that Joseph Smith, with the inspiration of our Heavenly Father, translated the Gold Plates to give us the record of the people who came to the Americas, lived in Americas and even those, who got to see the Savior, after his resurrection, in the Americas. I have a Testimony of Temple work for the dead through proxy as well as the work we do for ourselves. I know, if you take the time to pray, with a sincere heart, wanting to know truth without an agenda, the Lord will answer you!

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Update 11-9-12

Excuse me as I remove my foot from my mouth and wipe the egg from my face. I was deceived. I was wrong. I was misinformed because I chose to research a few topics and not the foundation of the LDS church. I relied on my "Burning of the Bosom", knowledge lacking testimonies instead of the Word of God. I chose to be ignorant of the Bible and it's warnings. After much study and learning how the Bible we now have came to us, I know now my God kept his word and preserved his words to our day and his words will be preserved forever. My God cannot Lie and has kept his promises.

Ohh dear. The things that weighed heavily on my heart while trying to save myself through the "Works" I thought were required to make it back to God. The "Works" that I did to save myself and my ancestors.. so they could make it back to God. How foolish I was. Thinking that God dwells in the Temples here on Earth?

Acts 7:48-49 
48 Howbeit the most High dwelleth not in temples made with hands; as saith the prophet,  
49 Heaven is my throne, and earth is my footstool: what house will ye build me? saith the Lord: or what is the place of my rest?

Not to mention the fact about trying to save myself... doing all the works I can, to pay for a Gift that can't be bought. If I can do it all and save myself by becoming perfect ...or even work my way to 1,000th of the way and have the Savior fill in the rest.. what need do I have of a Savior in the first place? My works are nothing! I can do nothing to earn salvation. You don't earn a gift. You accept it. 

Ephesians 2:8-9 
For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:
Not of works, lest any man should boast

  
My "works" are nothing. I am a sinner. I cannot be perfect by my own doing.. It's against human nature because of the fall of Adam. God knows this. All he asks is we accept and know our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Through him we become perfect in him. He dwells in those who accept his Gift. Good works follow the believer.  We are changed and become a new creature in Christ, who saves us.... We must repent of our Righteousness!! 

Isaiah 64:6 
"But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousness are as filthy rags;and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away."


Luke 18:19 And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? none is good, save one, that is, God. 

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Covenants Received!

Our date to take out our Endowments is June 24th 1999. We schedule to take them out in the Manti, Utah Temple. We chose this temple because they have live sessions. In the Group they had a live session of their own so we wanted to experience a live session for our own personal reasons.

We drove to Manti with Brian's Sister and Brother in Law Becky and Sam. The day before we attended the Manti Pageant and toured the town. Stayed in a hotel room and awoke bright and early to be the first couple to attend the session.

Walking into the temple, feeling the peace and calm of wonderful surroundings. The attendants escorted us back to speak to the Temple presidency. I could feel angels pass us in the hall and was so overcome with joy that tears filled my eyes! We were then escorted back to change into white clothing to prepare for the session.

It was wonderful, so full of meaning and feeling that many times during the session I couldn't help but cry. Feeling the love and truth of everything was more then I could have ever hoped to feel. Toward the end, when my husband lead me into the Celestial Room, there was not a dry eye in the room. Total strangers that went through the session with us were crying. Temple patrons were in tears as well as our wonderful Friends and Family that were able to attend with us. Entering the Celestial Room was as if we entered Heaven itself! I wanted to dwell in that room forever!

My beautiful box was no longer empty but was now full and overflowing!

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Updated 11-9-12
My box was so full of feeling. So full of what I needed to feel. So full of what I wanted to feel...and so full of deception.

There are things missing from this ceremony that were in the Polygamy ceremony. Things I later questioned my Bishop who then sent me to the Stake President. His answer to our questions about the penalty's that were removed?  The Lord saw that they weren't needed anymore so they were removed. Why were they not needed? Why were they removed? What kinds of penalties did the Lord require now if they were broken? (They were pretty grotesque and part of me was glad they were removed  but I still questioned why the change?) Does God change things for the comfort of his children? Why did he not change the Law of Moses to conform more to the comfort of the Jews? That would mean his word is ever changing instead of never changing. The LDS church believes in a Church that is ever changing. It doesn't matter what one prophet before them taught.. When that prophet passes away it's almsot as if most everything they said it null and void when the current Prophet makes a statement that contradicts the last. One generation of Mormons believes one thing and the next believes another.. There teachings don't match and it's confusion. Old time Ensign use to be the Journals of Discourses.. but it's not official Doctrine anymore. It's Null and Void. So what if one prophet use to teach that the only way to enter the Celestial Kingdom is by living the Plurality of wives?  That went away with The manifesto and the Prophet Wilford Woodruff. The Most recent.. and I know it's silly... but Gordon B Hinckley said that faithful members of the church don't drink Coke... but now it's okay to drink Coke. Did God conform to mans weakness because they were already doing it?

More Preparation.

We are now members of the Church Of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. For the first time in my life I know where I belong. . The peace that fills me is indescribable. I feel I'm home.

We now need to wait a year before we can enter the Temple to take out our endowments and be sealed as an eternal family. Taking this journey with my best friend and Husband was such a blessing. Having this man, whom I chose to be with forever is now with me, on the same path.

We received our Temporary Temple recommends and entered the Temple to do Baptisms for the dead at least 2-3 times a month. Feeling the presents of those who had been waiting to get their work done, their excitement, gratitude, and joy was sometimes overwhelming and other days sparse.

It was a rough year, full of temptations and doubts. Not of our faith but of my worthiness to be sealed to such a wonderful man for eternity! I made some choices that caused me to have to put our date on hold, but with some help from my husband and lots of prayer, I was able to overcome the problems and continue.

By this time, I am now expecting our 3rd child, Andrew. He will be our first child that will be born under the covenant into our Eternally Sealed Family! My due date will be 6 weeks before his birth from our Sealing date.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Baptism

The day had finally arrived!! June 3rd 1998! Brian and I were going to be entering the waters of baptism! One, to be cleansed of all of our sins and two, to become Members of the Church of Jesus Christ and Latter-Day Saints!

We didn't have many family members there but we did have LOTS of our Ward family attend! I didn't know what to expect as my first 2 experiences with baptism were empty. No feeling and no meaning. Empty shells. I wasn't looking for another because I know, in my heart, that this is where the Truth was. This is what I needed to do.. and to have my husband with me while we both were baptized this day was wonderful!! I didn't want to do this without him by my side!

The font was filled but it was too full so someone let the water out and walked away letting it almost completely empty. They had to fill it again but there was no more hot water. When I walked down into the water it was so cold. When the time came to be placed under the water and brought back up, I felt a cloak of warmth surround me as I walked out of the water. I didn't notice the cold anymore, all I felt was warmth and love. Walked up out of the faunt and went into the dressing room to get dressed. I cried! Tears of joy!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Elder Wirthlin

The day finally came for us 2 months later. We were asked to go and meet with one of the 12 apostles. We are actually going to go and speak with one of the 12 who will then decide if we will be approved to be baptized. It was Elder Wirthlin. Brian and I went to the building and waited in his receptionists room. The spirit in that room... in that building was wonderful. We basked in it!!

I was called to go into his office first. He motioned for me to sit in the chair and he went straight to the point and asked me "Why do you want to join the church?" Between the spirit in his office and the words that leaped my lips, I could not hold back the flood of emotions and tears! My answer? "Because the church is TRUE! I can't deny that, or will I ever deny it!" I was sobbing almost uncontrolled when he said. Good Answer! He shook my hand and said. "What an honor to have such a strong testimony! Welcome to the Church!" He escorted me out and motioned for Brian to enter.

While I was in the office Brian was talking to the receptionist. He asked if she was aware of the spirit in his office. She nodded and he asked if she ever gets use to it. She said that she guesses she does.

We left the offices totally on cloud 9! We then set our baptism date for June 3rd 1998.

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Update 11-9-12
A man, being chosen to decide whether or not we can be forgiven of our Sins and be baptized and become members of a church. I guess it makes sense because it is the church of Men... If it truly was Jesus Christs Church then Jesus would decide. 

Patience and Perseverance.

Our papers were placed on the desk of an apostle who was out of the country. Elder Wirthlin was in charge of all members wanting to join the church from backgrounds like ours. Becky W. called to try to find out our status as it was taking a very long time. Brian and I waited patiently.

We were attending church, loving the companionship and support from everyone. I was compiling a binder with all of the information I had found that helped me see the truth. Scripture references, Talks from both sides, letters as well as church archive time lines. It helped pass the time as well as helped me help my sister, Misty, and all of her questions.

The day told my family we were joining the church my sis had so many questions. She was so full of anger and resentment toward me and Brian. I don't know what mom was telling her about us but it couldn't have been good. I finally told her that I wasn't going to talk to her about any of it till she prayed for peace and understanding. The spirit of contention was so thick she wasn't going to listen to anything I told her. 3 days later she came over and told me she prayed and wanted to know what I know. Something told her she needed to join the church as well. She slowly came to the truth and joined the church. It was a long hard road for her. The church has a policy that requires the person being baptized to not be living with a parent with the background of ours. She was still living with mom at the young age of 14, wanted to be baptized more then anything and not being able to be. She hung though, stayed firm in her faith, went to church every week as well as all of her young women meetings and was finally given the yes to be baptized at 17 years old. What a wonderful day that was!!